B

B

Zhou Pei Lin





And I find it kinda funny

I find it kinda sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had





B
Yin Yang

. // bloglinks +
airina
artieee
bjössi
brandon
caterina
chillicrapblog
chris (one-year-gap)
cordelia
dhalif
donald
ember
ewan
ewen
fadil
frances
giggs
guthrie
huiwen
ian
ivy
jane
jay
kenny
labbit
leck koon
leonard
linus
marcus
maria
melissa
melvin
michelle
morganth
nat ho
nat yong
pamela
potatobiscuit
pris meimei
rudi
sade
samantha
sidney
siew ling
silver
sharon
stacy
terentius
travis
tom
wenting
zhen ru

. // archives +
02/01/2002 - 03/01/2002
03/01/2002 - 04/01/2002
04/01/2002 - 05/01/2002
05/01/2002 - 06/01/2002
06/01/2002 - 07/01/2002
07/01/2002 - 08/01/2002
08/01/2002 - 09/01/2002
10/01/2002 - 11/01/2002
11/01/2002 - 12/01/2002
12/01/2002 - 01/01/2003
02/01/2003 - 03/01/2003
03/01/2003 - 04/01/2003
04/01/2003 - 05/01/2003
05/01/2003 - 06/01/2003
06/01/2003 - 07/01/2003
07/01/2003 - 08/01/2003
08/01/2003 - 09/01/2003
09/01/2003 - 10/01/2003
10/01/2003 - 11/01/2003
11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003
12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004
01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004
02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004
03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004
04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004
05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004
06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004
07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004
09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004
10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004
11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004
12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005
01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005
02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005
04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005
05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005
06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005
07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005
09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005
10/01/2005 - 11/01/2005
11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005
12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006
01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006
02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006
03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006
04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006
05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006
06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006
07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006
08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006
09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006
10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006
11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006
12/01/2006 - 01/01/2007
01/01/2007 - 02/01/2007
02/01/2007 - 03/01/2007
03/01/2007 - 04/01/2007
04/01/2007 - 05/01/2007
05/01/2007 - 06/01/2007
06/01/2007 - 07/01/2007
07/01/2007 - 08/01/2007
08/01/2007 - 09/01/2007
09/01/2007 - 10/01/2007
10/01/2007 - 11/01/2007
11/01/2007 - 12/01/2007
12/01/2007 - 01/01/2008
01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008
02/01/2008 - 03/01/2008
03/01/2008 - 04/01/2008
04/01/2008 - 05/01/2008
05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008
08/01/2008 - 09/01/2008
09/01/2008 - 10/01/2008

Monday, October 25, 2004

Want to know how difficult some customers can be? This is just a mild example. VERY mild.

*boy and his mom walks up to counter first thing when I open the doors*

Me: "Hi, good afternoon! *smiles* How may I help you?"

Boy: "This copy of Half-Life's CD-Key is in use."

Me: "Oh, alright... I'll go grab another copy for y--"

Boy: "No, I want a refund. I already came down twice yesterday to change it."

Me: "Actually, we don't do refunds unless the game doesn't work."

Boy's mom: "Well, we don't care. The game technically doesn't work, so I'm demanding a refund."

Me: "Uhm, let me speak to my boss."

*proceeds to tell boss about situation*

Me: "Alright, he gave me the green light so I'll ref--"

Boy's mom: "What kind of service is this?! I said I wanted to speak to your boss!"

Me: "Eh..?"

Boy's mom: "Don't give me that, you heard me. I told you I wanted to speak to your boss when you were speaking to him. You should have handed the phone to me!"

Me: "Uhm, but I'm refunding the mo--"

Boy's mom: "I don't just want the refund! I want TRAVEL FARE! My son came back to this very shop three times already! This is the third time!"

Me: "I'm sorry ma'am but this isn't--"

Boy's mom: "So what now? I don't get compensation?! What kind of place is this anyway?! Why do you sell faulty games?!"

Me: "It's not our fault ma'am, we get them from the distributor, we sell them."

Boy's mom: "So I still don't get my son's travel compensation?"

*boy tugs on mom's sleeve and shakes his head, embarrassed*

Me: "I'm sorry ma'am, but what happened isn't our fault. We don't have omniscience and we can't tell you if your game's CD-key is in use. If you really want to make a scene, take it to Valve."

Boy's mom: "Honestly, how RUDE!"

Me: "Listen, ma'am. You're not going to be able to find such patient salespeople elsewhere. YOU try. They'd argue with you from the beginning. But even the most patient people have limits, so don't test it."

Boy: "Mom, can we go? Don't blow this up."

Boy's mom: "Fine, I want my money. *glares at me and then turns to the boy* And you'd better not come back here again!"

Boy: "Yah yah yah let's just go."

*hands the woman the money (in coins and dollar bills) and proceeds to serve the other customers in the shop*

Boy's mom: *on the way out the door* "YOUR MANAGER WILL BE HEARING FROM ME SOON!!"

Boy: *groans* "Moooooooom..."

Me: *calmly and disarmingly smiles and waves* "Thank you, pleasure doing business with you!"

The conversation was cut short a little, but the essence is still there. luckily the boy was there with his mom... or his travel fare [$40 in total] would have to come out of my own pocket. Damn these spoilt people. Customers are always right my ass.

. // prawninator | 23:44 + ~

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Sometimes I feel that if love hurts so much...

... I don't wanna live anymore.

. // prawninator | 02:01 + ~

Friday, October 22, 2004

PAST
1.) first grade teacher's name: Ms Ang.
2.) last word you said: Weird.
3.) last song you sang: Shinedown's Burning Bright.
4.) last thing you laughed at: Dane Cook's video.
5.) last time you cried: 5 minutes ago.
6.) what color socks are you wearing: Not wearing socks.
7.) what's under your bed?: Two drawers filled with junk.
8.) what time did you wake up today: 11.15am.
9.) the last thing you wrote to someone: "That was the week Ryan was here."

FUTURE:
1.) what is your career going to be: No idea.
2.) where are you going to live: No idea.
3.) how many kids do you want: Two, max.
4.) what kind of car will you drive: Monster truck.
5.) if you could live anywhere in the world, where: Anywhere with him.
1.) current hair: Long and wavy, with dark purple-red streaks
2.) current clothes: Nightdress.
3.) current jewelry: 3 rings, 3 earrings, a necklace that I never take off.
4.) current annoyance: Brother.
5.) current smell: *sniff* No idea.
6.) current longing: Ryan.
7.) current desktop picture: Metallica ninja star.
8.) current worry: Losing him.
9.) current hate: Work.
10.) current favorite article of clothing: My jeans.
11.) do you currently like someone: ..Yes.

FAVORITES:
1.) favorite physical feature on a girl: Eyes.
2.) favorite physical feature on a guy: Eyes.
3.) one person you wish was here right now: Ryan.
4.) favorite author: Tom Clancy, R.A. Salvatore.
5.) favorite coffee: Starbucks Caramel Frappe.
6.) favorite smell: Elizabeth Arden Red Door Revealed.
7.) favorite way to waste time: Play computer games.
8.) favorite season: Autumn.
9.) favorite color: Black / Silver / Purple.
10.) favorite time of day: Night.

FASHION:
1.) how many coats and jackets do you own: Four or five.
2.) do you wear a watch: Yes.
3.) favorite pants color: Black.
4.) most expensive item of clothing: Dorothy Perkins blouse.
5.) most treasured: A woolen vest.
6.) gold or silver: White gold.

YOUR FRIENDS
1.) do your friends know you: Do they?
2.) what do they tend to be like: Bitchy?
3.) can you count on them: I guess.
4.) can they count on you: Most definitely.
5.) do you find it hard to trust people: Sometimes.

LASTS:
1.) last book you read: My Daily Bread
2.) last movie you watched: Robin Hood: Men In Tights
3.) last movie you saw in theaters: White Chicks
4.) Last show you watched on tv: The news, 3 days ago
5.) last song you heard: Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
6.) last thing you had to drink: Water
7.) last thing you ate: Instant noodles
8.) last time you showered: 11:45am today.
9.) last time you smiled: Just.
10.) last person you hugged: Nick, a regular.
11.) last person you danced with: Ryan.
12.) last person you talked to online: Linus, Jane, Samantha (all at once)
13.) last person you talked to on the phone: My boss
14.) last thing you bought yourself: Sims 2 DVD Edition.

DO YOU?:
1.) smoke: Yes.
2.) do drugs: No.
3.) drink: Yes.
4.) sleep with stuffed animals: Yes.
5.) have a dream that keeps coming back: Yes.
7.) believe there is life on other planets: No.
8.) read the newspaper: Occasionally.
9.) have any gay or lesbian friends: Yes.
10.) believe in miracles: Yes.
11.) consider police a friend or foe: Depends.

FEELINGS:
1.) do you have any regrets: Yes.
2.) i am happiest when: I can see him again.
3.) i feel lonely: When I have over 150 people in my list but no one to talk to.
4.) what makes you mad: Arrogant pricks.

THIS OR THAT:
1.) bath or shower: Bath.

OTHER STUFF:
1.) what's the craziest thing you have ever done: Approach people for their numbers on behalf of my friends.
2.) any bad habits: I chew on my nails.
3.) any secret crushes: No.
4.) do you think too much: Yes.

. // prawninator | 14:04 + ~

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Your score is
30/50

what does that mean?
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

What is yours?
quiz by midgetfarm.com

. // prawninator | 01:24 + ~

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

HOW TO TALK TO YOUR KIDS ABOUT DRUGS.

Talking to your kids about drugs. It's probably one of the most difficult tasks that parents face today. But it's a job that must be done.

The best thing about the subject is that you don't have to do it well. You simply have to try. Your kids probably don't expect much from you anyway, given how badly your talk about sex with them went. But that's another matter and it's in the past. This is your chyance to gain back a shred of the trust and respect that you lost in their eyes after that debacle.

Accept rebellion
At the heart of it, drugs, alcohol, wild hairstyles, ear-splitting music and the like is teenage rebellion -- your child's way of telling you that they hate you, your lifestyle, your friends and all the values that you hold in high esteem and have worked your entire life to achieve. this is a good thing. If teenagers are to develop any sense of self-worth or superiority, there is no one better or more convenient for them to look upon with disdain and contempt than their parents.

You rebelled. They're revelling. Problem is, you did it much more intensely and recklessly than your kids would ever dream of doing it. Which is why you have no credibility discussing topics like drugs with your kids and why they hate you so, frequently laughing at you and mocking you behind your back.

But, like I said, you have to have this talk with them about drugs so you might as well just get on with it.

Don't get discouraged
When you talk to your kids about drugs, you may think nothing is getting through to them. And you're probably right. But keep at it anyway. Nag incessantly if you have to. Your parents did it to you and now's your chance to do it to your kids and to continue this disturbing family tradition.

Sometimes it can be very awkward getting started. Most parents rarely talk to their children, and when they do it's usually about something very superficial and unimportant, like what time the mall closes or missing money from a wallet or pocketbook. To get the ball rolling, try rehearsing the conversation with your spouse beforehand. Many parents have written to say that they foud this technique very helpful. Many more parents have written to say they found a tequila shot or two right before confronting the child to be even more helpful.

Start anywhere
However you get started is up to you. But what you say and how you say it is extremely important if your conversation with your child is to be effective.

"Do you know about any of your friends or classmates doing drugs?"

"What kind of drugs?"

"Do you know where they usually buy them and how much the dealer charges? How could mommy and daddy get in touch with this dealer?"

Some DO'S and DON'TS.
Most psychologists say what's most important when speaking to your child is that you speak from the heart. That's crap. Society's been listening to these eggheads for years, and things haven't gotten one bit better. And besides, if parents told their kid what's really in their hearts, the kid would run out of the room screaming and be horribly, emotionally scarred for the rest of their life. Where do you think serial killers and axe murderers come from anyway?

No, it's better if you do as little talking as possible. There's less chance to screw up and it puts more of the burden on the defensive child.

The dialogue should be open and frank, Ask your child his or her opinion about drugs. Express to your child your fears and concerns. Share with your child what it was like when you were a teen growing up, though here it's probably best if you leave out or deny any experimenting you may have had with marijuana, cocaine, hallucinogenic mushrooms, LSD and heroin.

Also, consider leaving out or denying any stories about your being expelled from school, any Grateful Dead concerts you may have gone to, waking up in a bus terminal in a pool of your own vomit, drug-related traffic accidents in which one or more of your classmates or friends were killed with you behind the wheel and that whole seven-year Colombian "vacation" you took.

Above all, be honest.

I know it isn't easy, especially with your short-term memory problem. But it's important that you try. And that your child knows how you feel.

And it's probably best if, when you speak to your child, you don't do it when you're stoned.

. // prawninator | 13:48 + ~

Monday, October 18, 2004

March

Attractive personality (yay). Sexy (huh?!). Affectionate (yay). Shy and reserved (since when?!). Secretive (uh-huh). Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic (yay). Loves peace and serenity (definitely). Sensitive to others (sometimes). Loves to serve others (seems that way). Easily angered (seems that way too). Trustworthy (not for me to say). Appreciative and returns kindness (most of the time). Observant and assesses others (maybe). Revengeful (not really). Loves to dream and fantasize (most definitely). Loves traveling (oh yes). Loves attention (nuh-uh). Hasty decisions in choosing partners (no way!). Loves home decors (yep!). Musically talented (talented? naaaah. but i love music anyways). Loves special things (very much). Moody (permanent pms? haha).

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

. // prawninator | 23:46 + ~

Sunday, October 17, 2004

... I forgot what I was going to write, go me.

. // prawninator | 23:59 + ~

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Everything around me is whirling out of whack. WHY?!

My brother's girlfriend is leaving for Taiwan permanently
One of his best friends is leaving for Australia for 5 years
(I know them both)
Major politics going around in work
People I know breaking up
Ryan not coming back because of problems at home

And now the latest one...

Jon's mother only has a few weeks to live if she refuses to undergo chemotherapy to treat the tumours in her brain. A few months if she complies. I feel for Jon. He's been there for me a lot, and I feel kinda helpless that I can't help or make him feel better. Nggh.

I guess Boland was right.
"Shit happens. No point worrying. Remember, it could always be worse. It could be your mother with the tumors, your brother leaving for Taiwan and Ryan could be dead... Keep that in mind."
It could always be worse.

. // prawninator | 23:40 + ~

I got this from Fei's blog.
Friends, lets start a new term, shall we?
Please use this new term as much as possible, it is not copyrighted.

jerryong (verb) - to put up a bad performance but still lauded as credible by incredible individuals.

jerryong (verb) - (2) to bullshit your way through, and still get rewarded

examples of usage:

"William Hung jerryonged his way to success. Now he is as big as Jaime Tinkler."(dun ask, dun tell).

"Perlin hopes to jerryong through her graduation project, which due in 2 weeks, and she hasn't even written a word."

jerryongian (adjective) - e.g "Fadhil's jerryongian report got him an AD"

jerryong (noun) - e.g "His report was a jerryong. Dunno what his lecturers were thinking"

"The last election was a jerryong for Bush. People are still caught on their butts about that one."
Uhm, yeah. Apparently this was made in light of Jerry Ong's loooooooong stay in the Singapore Idol competition. I thought he was terrible , but I guess his friends and his god shone luck on him yeah?

Ahhhh whatever.

. // prawninator | 16:34 + ~

Friday, October 15, 2004

There are many ups and downs on being a woman and working in an environment where I do. On the upside, I get to meet people like the model two posts previous. On the downside, I meet really scary people like this indian fella that comes to the shop specifically looking for me.

And besides, it's a game shop.

Full of male testosterone.

No place for a woman, they would think, until they have to lick my four-inch heels clean when I pwn them in some game like Doom 3 or Unreal Tournament. Man's thing indeed. Just the other day a girl came into the shop, took a look around, grabbed a copy of Doom 3 and promptly headed to the counter (after considering whether or not to buy Battlefield: Vietnam) with her NETS card in hand. When Ace and I asked her if she was buying the game for her boyfriend or something, she said no, it was for herself.

We immediately told her how impressed we were, and how most (if not all ) of the girls that come here to buy games only buy them for their boyfriends, cousins, friends, or they buy "chick games" such as Sims 2. She seemed to understand, and told us how her boyfriend doesn't even like games.

Hah, man's thing indeed.

Most men think that girls can't play games.
I'm here to prove them wrong.

PH34R!

. // prawninator | 02:33 + ~

orange aura
Your aura shines Orange!


What Color Is Your Aura?
brought to you by Quizilla

. // prawninator | 02:24 + ~

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Ladies, feast your eyes...

This is the epitome of godly sexiness.

Patrick Ribbsaeter


Don't worry, Ryan, I'm still yours. You know I mean that.

This guy comes into the shop every now and then, and has me and several customers (and colleagues) gawking at him. I mean, we have a celeb in the shop! We have a celeb as a REGULAR! Celeb? Oh, did I mention he was in that recent copy-paper ad? And the Levi's mermaid ad? Not to mention several ads and Gucci shows even.

Hell, I found an entire folder of his pictures in one of the PCs.
I was clearing up unused icons! I SWEAR!!

Aaaaah. Dammit.

There's more to drool about on his website that I had painstakingly retrieved from one of the computers that he had used. *cough*

Enjoy!

. // prawninator | 22:39 + ~

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Byebye, Christopher Reeve.

. // prawninator | 10:05 + ~

I want to sell my copy of Sims 2.

Bought only the week before, installed once and played three times.

Bought for $54.90
Selling for $45.

Let me know.

. // prawninator | 09:51 + ~

Sunday, October 10, 2004

I'm tired. Extremely tired.

And I feel at a loss.
God knows why.

Ah well.

Computer's fucked.

. // prawninator | 02:53 + ~

Friday, October 08, 2004

My dad re-installed Windows. There goes all my fonts.

Damned pissed.

On the other hand, I haven't heard from Ryan in a week. Before he left for Bahrain he told me not to worry if I don't get any response from him in a week or two, because the Navy shuts down the email server once in a while when they're underway. So, yeah, fine. I mean, if Boland didn't tell me how strongly guarded and protected the fleet is, I'd probably just... I don't know, worry my ass off.

Exams are finally over now.

I can work peacefully, I guess.
It's a Friday, so the shop should be quite full and all. Well, I hope to God it would be, or the boss would think that I'm incompetant or something. Hope the other guys are working too, or at least dropping by.

Oh yeah. Keith is dropping by along with Matt later. It's also been what, two years since I've seen Matt? And Keith and Tanvir, really, ever since I stopped playing at NetGames. Ah well. At least they remember you, even though they go, "Hey, PRAWN!!" in the middle of a busy LAN shop.

Nice to be remembered.

. // prawninator | 09:37 + ~

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Alright, everything's fine and fixed now.

Whoop-de-do.

. // prawninator | 13:11 + ~

I'm becoming VERY pissed off with Haloscan.

If it wasn't because I had been using Haloscan for such a long time I'd have switched to something else. Like Enetation or something.

. // prawninator | 01:51 + ~

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

. // prawninator | 01:46 + ~

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

This is sad, I can only check my Haloscan notes from work.

. // prawninator | 13:30 + ~

I met up with Cordelia and Stephen on Sunday evening for dinner at Newton. I've not seen a couple I knew so... into each other than the two of them. I mean, sure Stephen is annoying and stuff, but it's funny. Annoying in a funny way, does that make sense? I thought he was annoying online, but in real life he's like, heaps and heaps and heaps more crappy.

But it made me miss Ryan terribly, though I didn't show it much. I admit I'm a little more than worried for him, but I've decided that you know, he's a big boy now, he can take care of himself.

Other than that, I think I'll have to sign up for the supplementary paper.

Ahh, the pain.

Damn, I'm late for work.

. // prawninator | 10:30 + ~

Monday, October 04, 2004

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

. // prawninator | 02:43 + ~

Sunday, October 03, 2004

For some reason, Haloscan decided to block me out.

I keep getting a 404 error when I want to see my comments.

Rrrgh.

. // prawninator | 15:16 + ~

Friday, October 01, 2004

On the 15th of September, my current class had gone for a night out in a club. After everyone had gone, I had asked Jaymee who that "angmoh" guy in her picture was, and she showed me a ring; an engagement ring. I kept quiet, as I didn't want to announce it on her behalf or anything. But quietly, I envied her.

It's almost every girl's dream to be proposed to, to be married to the man they love. Undoubtedly, the road to true love was never smooth. Definitely there will be problems, but wouldn't it be great if everything works out right? The thought itself makes me imagine, when my turn would be, if it ever comes.

Seems as though everyone around me is getting married or engaged. Starfire's married, Jaymee's engaged, Cordelia would be soon (depending on Steve), Boland's married, Justin's married (with a beautiful daughter!), Ng got married, and several other people too. Like Jeremy once put it, "Everyone's joining the Fellowship of The Ring." I find it true. But of course, I don't want to jump on the marriage bandwagon.

I do want to settle down, even though some 30 - 40 year old gaming friends I have told me that I'm waaaay too young to be thinking about it, that marriage is a serious thing to consider. For me... I want to be able to live my life with the person I love, share my joys my pain and everything with him... wake up each morning by his side. Sounds nice, doesn't it?

Anyway, I just want to congratulate Jaymee on her engagement.

Love is a precious thing shared by two people, and I'm happy for you both for having found each other. Again, congratulations.

. // prawninator | 23:59 + ~

To whoever you are, wherever you are, I love you. I probably don't know you yet, but when I do, I'll know, and so will you. And you'll love me for who I am, as will I.

You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.

Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.

It's just a matter of time.

. // links | misc +
- poorgamergirl auction
- email me
- [shop] wear your dice
- [shop] the poor gamer girl
- idm website
- idm forums
- halloween photos

Donate to:
The Poor Gamer Girl Fund
:D

We could use any help we can get, but you are not obliged to.
:)



Child's Play: This year, give fun :)

Ctrl+Alt+Del
Penny Arcade
ph34r 7h3 cu73 0n3s

PRAWNINATOR