And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
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I can't describe how nervous I am, how scared I am to be (almost!) alone in a country I'm not familiar with in the very least. I know Andrea and Steve are gonna try and help me feel comfortable while I'm in Tucson (thanks!) and in turn I'm gonna try and be a tolerable guest. Hehe.. hehehe... heh.
So the details are as such, if anyone wants to send me off.
The plane flies at 0905hrs on 8 March, Wednesday. I will be taking flight SQ16. Yep, for once I'm taking Singapore Airlines! I don't know what it's going to be like, but flight after flight on United, I hope it's going to be a lot more comfortable at the very least. Hehe.
I'll reach Tucson, Arizona at 1956hrs or thereabouts, on America West flight 6445. That's about... 12 or 1 in the morning in Singapore. Meh.
I think I should go prepare.
I've yet to do some laundry.
. // prawninator | 20:17 + ~
But if you don't want to talk to me again
TELL IT TO MY FACE.
. // prawninator | 15:03 + ~
Oh, how mundane.
Anyhow, three weeks remain until I finally step foot in the USA again. I'm still getting the nerves, as I'll be away from the security of my family again, but this time for longer. Three months. Hooboy. What do I do for three months? It might seem like an extremely long time, but for me, being in unfamiliar territory might go slightly faster.
No logic? Lemme put it this way.
I'll be doing a lot of travelling while I'm there. That takes out some time from my actual look-seeing, if you can call it that. I'll also be taking in a lot more information, scenery-wise; like, familiarizing myself with my surroundings. I mean, I spent a month in Virginia the last time. I can vaguely remember where Ryan lived while I was there.
Well, I was just lying back thinking the other day, and for some odd reason, I remembered what Andrew said the other day outside Cineleisure, when we bumped into him, Fei, and his sister. He said I had slimmed down, and of course, I was in shock.
I mean, I actually gained a size. 'Tis not good.
In other news, [Foror's Compendium of Dragon Slaying] is going for 89g, surprisingly. Has the market for the [Quel'Serrar] dropped THAT much? It's impossible. Every warrior in his right frame of mind would pick it up (unless he or she is 2H spec, like me). Then again..
Tired. Sleep. *nods sagely*
. // prawninator | 01:00 + ~
The evening air was crisp and fresh against Lythania's lungs as she took in a deep breath in her sleep and rolled over in her soft bed in Stormwind City. She had a long day ahead of her, and had decided to take a nap after work. Unbeknownst to her, Ahri, her guild master, padded softly into the room. He crouched over her, his glowing eyes blinking in the soft candlelight, and shook her awake from her slumber.
"Lyth! Lyyyyyth! It's time to wake up!"
"What? Who... What time is it?"
"It's time to go. The others told me to come wake you up."
"Nngh? Alright, give me a few to get ready."
Struggling to her still-sleepy feet, Lythania strapped on her battle-worn but trusty armor, knowing full well what was in store for her. Hauling up her backpack of supplies and trinkets, she looked at herself in the mirror and checked her room to make sure she didn't forget anything for she knew it was going to be a long, hard battle. When she was satisfied, she looked around for Ahri, but as quickly as he appeared, he was nowhere to be found.
With one uneventful gryphon flight to Darkshire and a short ride on Caramel later, she arrived at her destination.
She never really liked this place. Trolls and their voodoo tricks, snakes, raptors. She shuddered as she pushed open the tall, iron gates that separated the vile creatures from her. Stepping through, she smiled widely. Almost all of her colleagues had already gathered, preparing for the battles that would soon ensue. She recognized most of them, having fought alongside many during her early days of her training, and many others as she advanced.
Spells were being cast, incantations being said, conjurations out of thin air, the grinding of stone against blade edge. They were like music to Lythania's ears. A well-prepared and organized team would have no problems in a fight, she thought to herself, and then smiled grimly. But one mistake could mean fatality.
Looking around the makeshift camp just beyond the Zul'Gurub gates, she looked around for those she recognized. Lysar and Stormy, great paladins true to the Light, Prothall, Wayloren and Rixie, some of the Guild's most talented mages, Asteoria the outspoken mistress of the dark magicks, Takana, Ereth and Kathadien, skilled marksmen and hunters, Ahri, Sepryn, Saigh and Necrogen, masters in the art of stealth, Arbarus and Elemesnedene, proficient in the art of healing, and Conol and Aingle, accomplished swordsmen like herself.
A further look around, she found that there were a couple of unfamiliar faces. Asking around she found out their names to be Valandiel, another priest of great skill and Vanorsh, a warrior bound to his rage. Nodding to them, she prepared to sharpen her blades. The battle was about to begin.
The group ventured forth with no great mishaps, just a wrong footing here and there, but nothing the group couldn't handle at large. Inward they traveled until they came across Venoxis, an abomination of nature in himself. Guarded by four snakes, they needed a plan. And a good one, at that. One mistake and it could spell the end of them all.
Brace yourself, Lythania thought to herself. This is going to be hard. Listening intently to the plan that Ahri had laid out, she understood her role and had every intention of getting this done and over with. Grinding her teeth and gripping her sword hilts tightly, she felt a reassuring pat on her shoulder and turned to see a smiling Saigh smile down on her. She relaxed a little and looked to the task at hand.
The plan was this; the three mages had to cast polymorph spells on three of the snakes while Conol was to pick one up and beat the living daylights out of it, while Aingle was to face Venoxis one by one until the snakes were all killed. Lythania shuddered; she did not want to know how was like to have to face him on her own like Aingle had to. After the snakes were killed, they would have to attack Venoxis until told to stop and back up. Easy enough, Lythania thought. I could do that.
The chanting started and three little sheep appeared where the snakes had been. The plan was working well so far. Gripping tightly on her swords, she saw Conol charge the one snake that wasn't polymorphed and Aingle charge Venoxis, knocking him senseless for a few seconds. Pushing back on her left leg, Lythania propelled herself towards the snake that Conol had been attacking. Vanorsh too, and soon after, a full-fledged battle had commenced.
The first snake was downed pretty quickly, as was the next and then before they knew it, all four of the snakes were down. The mages took a few seconds to regain their breath as the rest attacked Venoxis in a ringing clash of various metals against scale. Then, it happened.
Venoxis himself turned into a snake!
Aingle shoved everyone out of his way, and taking a hint, everyone who was fighting him at melee range turned tail and ran. The sound of gunshots ricocheted off the walls and the smell of gunpowder wafted through the air; the whistle of arrows and the twanging of bows could also be heard. The hunters were in action, taking precise aim on Venoxis as the healers tried their best to keep Aingle alive. Asteoria concentrated hard, her lips chanting a dark incantation as she drained away Venoxis' energy. When she had sapped all she could, the rest moved in to take him down in one final, vicious attack.
The group tried hard not to hit each other in the mass of blades that were flying at Venoxis' scaly body. Lythania could not even see the magnitude of fireballs flung at him, courtesy of the mages. In desperation, Venoxis tried to cast a spell, affecting everyone who was in range. Cringing in pain, several backed away, frantically downing potions and using bandages on their wounds before going back into the heat of the battle.
Venoxis was getting weak.
"Just a little more!" yelled Ahri. This battle was nearing its end, they could tell. Venoxis was visibly weakening. Soon, he lay motionless on the dusty ground, and the extent of casualty in regard to the team was apparent. Several of the group members were critically wounded, and the healers were busying themselves, casting white lights from their hands onto the bodies of the fallen.
Lythania tended to her own wounds, tightening runecloth bandages around her arms and exposed flesh before helping out Vanorsh, who was beaten up rather badly during the battle. Silence prevailed between the two as they said unspoken words of understanding, both being warriors of a kind.
The entire group knew, however, that the night was not over just yet.
. // prawninator | 23:54 + ~
Like I mentioned before, we're entering a poverty cycle.
It got us all upset, to tell you the truth. She wasn't too happy about my upcoming trip too, saying it's a waste of resources, and saying that after this, I "shouldn't fool around". I wanted to tell her that if I was fooling around I wouldn't spend this money to fly there again to see Chris and his family. It's getting serious between the two of us, and I don't want to screw up like I did the first time.
Which was why I was reluctant to go out tonight with Sam, Linus and the Jane-Dongli duo. I wanted to save every cent I got, but lazy me would take a taxi and all that. But bah. I don't go out often anyway, right? But I was checking my account balance tonight and it doesn't look too good right now.
I really don't like thinking about finances. It makes my head hurt and my stomach turn upside down. I have to, though so I don't have much of a choice. I'm good with money, really I am. I don't spend my money on ANYTHING except what I really, really want or what I really, really need. Which is why I spend only about $100 every YEAR on clothes. And that's it.
I really have to stop thinking.
. // prawninator | 00:16 + ~
I'll be leaving Singapore for the USA (again!) on the 8th of March 2006, at 0905hrs. And I swear, this time I'm extremely nervous. I'll be there for a whole three months, but I'll only get to see Chris 2 weeks out of it. And he won't be there when I land, either.
Which is why I'm kinda nervous. The "what if they don't like me?" thing always pops into my head. I mean, yeah. Chris has been reassuring me and stuff, but still, can't blame a girl for being scared.
I'll be travelling around more this year, instead of just to Virginia, I'll be flying to Philly and Vancouver Washington too, to see some friends I didn't get a chance to last year. If I can afford it, I might throw in another state in there somewhere.
Anyway, I haven't gotten a real chance to speak to Chris much these few weeks. It's the Lunar New Year! I've been out visiting with my parents.
Tuan Yuan Fan:
Of course, every Chinese family has to gather at our father's parent's place for a reunion dinner as according to tradition. But since my dad's family is not exactly... together (not for the lack of trying), we spend every year eating with my mom's parents instead.
So naturally, besides us, Dad, mom, bro and I, there's also Dajiufu and Xiaojiufu with their kid(s). Dajiumu wasn't around, as she was in China on business. The moment Kelly (my cousin, same age) stepped into the room, I had just one word come to mind. FAKE. *shrug* I don't know, didn't want to comment, just had a pleasant dinner.
Nian Chu Yi:
Had to wake up early to go to church, but none of my family members managed to actually crawl out of bed to go, so we took our time and prepared ourselves, put on our new clothes and took a cab to visit my 3rd Uncle (dad's 3rd brother) in Depot Road. As usual, we sat around and talked, catching up over the last year. It was pleasant. And since they were vegetarian, we had vegetarian pasta! It was interesting.
Was also supposed to visit my Aunt, but she's off in Malaysia, so we called up my cousin instead. I was honestly shocked to learn that my neice (whom I have not seen since she was 7) is now thirteen and in Secondary One, and the youngest of the four kids is now in Primary One. How time flies.
Nian Chu Er:
This was interesting. My older cousins taught me how to play Mahjong. I don't get to see them very often, but seeing them is alright, they're almost always all smiles and I'm almost always smiling along with them. We were just catching up and stuff while playing (badly, on my part), when Kelly walks in with Daikaufu. One of my cousins immediately mutters, "Rolleyes, rolleyes, rolleyes." I just couldn't stop chuckling.
We hung out till late, just playing Mahjong, gossiping and catching up. It was great fun. I even managed to squeeze in a couple of high-scores for Ouendan *beam*
Nian Chu San:
Slept in, then headed to Nick's house for dinner, hung out with Freddie, Marcus and Nick in his freezing air-conditioned room. Hung out and chit-chatted until three in the morning, just watching movies and stuff. It was fun.
So yeah, tough days, I spent the past few days recuperating and staying home. So.. much.. food..
But hey, I got My First Epic in WoW. ^^
. // prawninator | 23:15 + ~
To whoever you are, wherever you are, I love you. I probably don't know you yet, but when I do, I'll know, and so will you. And you'll love me for who I am, as will I.|
You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.
Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.
It's just a matter of time.
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