And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
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Yes, burnt burnt burnt.
Monday was cool. Took a walk at the beach with my classmate Samantha and my old school senior, Melvyn. The water was nice and clear and blue. Really lovely. But pity we didn't have our stuff with us or Sam and I would have jumped straight in! The weather was just so hot! Ended up eating a banana split at the airport later on. *giggles*
Watched the Matrix Reloaded on Tuesday. Graphics were seriously intense, of course. Storyline wasn't so bad. Even though I just caught a little bit of the first instalment, I managed to catch on to the dialog and action in the second. And try to see what's going on of course. Something about a Prophecy blah blah blah yada yada yada.
Went to the beach on Wednesday with Sam and Linus (and his friend Wilson) but the water was seriously contaminated. It had turned a ghastly green, but we didn't care and jumped in anyway. May came by later and we just played around, getting tanned and blah blah blah. I got sunburnt. Well that was a good break from school anyway. Didn't think I could survive under that pile of books any longer. Heehee.
*sigh* Didn't go to school on Thursday as my leg acted up and I couldn't walk, so I was stuck at home with my laptop on my bed. Hah! At least I had something to do, so I went on and played Scrabble.
Today wasn't so bad. Samantha didn't come to school as she had been down with a fever since yesterday. As for me, I turned up (I had to!) and just doodled in class. Somehow or rather I couldn't concentrate on what Timothy Ang was saying. Had lunch, came home. That's pretty much my life now; Wake up, go school, eat lunch, come home. *sighs*
. // prawninator | 20:05 + ~ Going to watch Matrix Reloaded tomorrow! Can't wait!
. // prawninator | 21:43 + ~ Did I mention that The Matrix Reloaded opens today? Plaza Singapura had a marathon screening... Started since yesterday night I believe. *Phew!*
. // prawninator | 23:35 + ~
What a day. I'm telling you. WHAT A DAY! We were supposed to have our classes held in the Dhoby Ghaut branch... but guess what! Our lecturer TOTALLY FORGOT and went straight to Bishan! Ugh. What a start. Class started at 10 instead of 9 and I was already there at 8:10!! Sick sick sick.
Oh well, that's not all. So class started late and ended early (What kinda logic is that?!) Lunch! Alright. Linus, Samantha, Rudz and I had lunch at McDonald's in Plaza Singapura, where we ordered a couponated (new word coined!) meal, where four Extra Value Meals would get us four free sundaes. Right. But the manager promptly shoved the coupon back at us, saying the promotion was over. I was furious, I -HAD- noticed that the expiry date for the coupon was for the 1st of June, which isn't for two weeks. So fine, he apologised and we got our meal. But strangely, we were made to pay much more than we had initially calculated. So Linus demanded a receipt which the manager confirmed as correct. We checked it over, and then I went straight up to him again, and told him he only deducted ONE sundae, not four. Argh.
It didn't end there. When I returned to class later on, I decided to drop by the loo to relieve myself... Who knew? Who knew that a few shakes of talcum powder would land on my head, causing me to age several decades in a few seconds? *sighs* Oh well... It was all in good not-so-clean fun anyway. There were egg shells and whites and yolks all over the toilet area... I returned to class with a powdered head and a powdered face, so headed back to the loo to help clean up and clean myself up at the same time. Boy, the toilet was in a mess... Talcum and egg everywhere... It took us about an hour and a half to wash down everything with water and head back to class.
Well yeah that was my day. Thought it was funny so decided to pen it down. Type, rather. Oh whatever.
. // prawninator | 23:31 + ~ I'm alive again
Darkness far behind me
I'm invincible
Despair will never find me
I feel strong
I've got a new sense of elation
Boundless energy
Euphoria fixation
Still it's hard to just get by
It seems so meaningless to try
When all I want to do is cry
Who would ever know I felt so sad
Even though I get so high
I know that I will never fly
And when I fall out of the sky
Who'll be standing by
Will you be standing by....?
. // prawninator | 20:01 + ~ I feel terrible. Absolutely terrible. Oh well. Can't blame me for having a slight flu can you? I hate influenza. Comes at the weirdest times. *sighs* I'd just wish it'll go away.
Well anyway the results of my exams are out... and I'm really nervous. Everyone in my class passed The Dynamics of Mass Communications module... while only half passed the Human and Mass Communications module. Which is scary. It's an easy module but it's hard to.. well.. if I really did fail, I'll just have to settle for the supplementary paper.
No more exams for me until the next paper. Shh. Eeks. Bad bad bad bad bad.
. // prawninator | 00:10 + ~ Remy came over to my place yesterday while I wasn't in... He gave me a book entitled "The Meaning of Life". Frankly speaking I don't think anyone can know the true meaning of life. I mean, take a look at it this way. A twelve year old's meaning of life and a seventy-eight year old's meaning of life are two VERY different things.
If I hadn't broken up with Remy, this would be our second-year anniversary. I guess that's why he dropped off the book yesterday. It just never dawned on me until about six or seven in the evening before I realised what day it was... I guess things pretty much change once you've broken up with someone... There's no such thing as "still the same"...
But I'm glad we're still friends. We had a chat on the phone before I headed off for bed.. and back out for my assignment. Heh. I hate doing assignments. Whenever I try to think, it just doesn't happen. *grrrr* Oh well. Pick yourself up and try again, Prawn!
. // prawninator | 12:24 + ~
"...Why do children believe in fairies, but 'grown-ups' don't?" That's one question I have been asking myself very often since I was a little kid. Maybe it's a child's overactive imagination and the enthusiasm to learn everything they can. People say that you're "Never too old, to take on something new, doing all the things you want to do". I beg to differ.
Why? Because most people when they grow old, they tend to... believe that they can't do all the things they had wanted to in their youth. Of course there are many people out there who would prove this wrong, I'm sure. But look at the majority. It's the same old routines for them, nothing new in their lives. After all, they've seen almost everything they want to.
It's just a deduction I guess. I'm not really sure of any statistics, but this is something I have noticed... As a person grows from child to adulthood and then to "senior citizenship", the level of imagination, the degree of enthusiasm for life tends to drop dramatically. So that's why I'll be taking my grandmother shopping one of these days... When I get the cash of course. Heehee. It'll be fun anyway. Along with my mom too why not? Three generations of the eldest daughters. Yeah, fun! (My grandmother was her mother's eldest daughter, my mother was her eldest daughter and I'm my mother's eldest daughter too. Cool eh? Heehee...)
. // prawninator | 12:05 + ~ It has been confirmed. I visited the psychiatrist this morning (I skipped class) and I have been diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder, Mild Schizophrenia and Bipolar Depression. As you can tell, things aren't going along as fine as I want them to. Had to fork out the bloody medical bill myself. That'll set me back a few weeks... Maybe it's a good time for me to lose weight.
So maybe that'll be all I'm writing today? Maybe you'd ask me, Diary... Am I talking as myself or as my other personality, my Alter Ego? I don't know, I can't control it. I'm on medication and sedatives now... So I guess I'll be fine. Maybe. Hopefully. Ha ha ha ha.
I need help
I sought help
So now I'm here...
Heh.
. // prawninator | 14:52 + ~ I'm back. I know it has been a while... But one of my friends is having trouble... was. On the 2nd of May, she has passed on to the other Realm.
On the 2nd of May she was taken by the Lord after around two to three weeks of stay in hospital. She has been under intense observation having suffered an asthma attack. Apparently she has much worse; Acute Bronchitis, a lung infection and SARS. On Friday, her lungs just failed her... refused to work. I just hope she's in a better place...
Not in much of a mood to write much else... Have a good week ahead.
. // prawninator | 19:09 + ~
You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.
Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.
It's just a matter of time.
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