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I was talking to Patrick on the phone... And I made him cry. Right now, I can't even remember why. But I guess I only kinda lashed out because he's becoming more and more like Liang, self-confidence at an all time low and stuff, and taking it out on himself, saying that he can't do this and he can't do that... and I snapped...
Then he told me that he only wanted to find a job... so that he can at least come here on a short vacation, just to see me. I am touched, really... But I did tell him that he would have better use of his money (eg. Education) than splurging it on a short trip. I cried. Because I didn't want him to look down on himself and so on... It hurt, it really did, to see (or hear) him say those things about himself... And when he started to cry, I swear even the people in Siberia can hear my heart break... Then he started playing this song by Brian May... I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be Too many bitter tears are raining down on me I'm far away from home And I've been facing this alone For much too long I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me About growing up and what a struggle it would be In my tangled state of mind I've been looking back to find Where I went wrong Too much love will kill you If you can't make up your mind Torn between the lover And the love you leave behind You're headed for disaster 'cos you never read the signs Too much love will kill you Every time I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be And it seems like there's no way out of this for me I used to bring you sunshine Now all I ever do Is bring you down How would it be if you were standing in my shoes Can't you see that it's impossible to choose No there's no making sense of it Every way I go I'm bound to lose Too much love will kill you Just as sure as none at all It'll drain the power that's in you Make you plead and scream and crawl And the pain will make you crazy You're the victim of your crime Too much love will kill you Every time Too much love will kill you It'll make your life a lie Yes, too much love will kill you And you won't understand why You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul But here it comes again Too much love will kill you In the end... In the end. And then we both started crying even more. *sighs* Until he played something funny. Like that Lumberjack song by Monty Python. Or something. Can't remember. *sighs* . // prawninator | 01:05 + ~ | |
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