And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very...
Mad world... Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very...
Mad world ... Mad world
Enlarge your new world
Mad world
I don't know why I started listening to this song again... It's a nice song, but awfully depressing. Gah, Anyone up for LAN? I haven't touched CS/TFC/Any FPS for a very long time. *sighs*
Why the hell do I feel like that?!
. // prawninator | 12:41 + ~ Patrick has his computer fixed! Yippee!
The last voice I heard before I went to bed and the first I heard when I got up was his... *smiles happily* Cost him about 520⏠to fix it up, but I suppose it's worth it. The computer people even managed to salvage his hard drive so he didn't lose any information! Although he -does- have to reformat it. But hey! He's back and runnin' fine!
*jumps about*
But I learnt one thing though.
You can't make everyone happy.
*sighs*
Anyhow, was part of the church worship team this morning (I actually woke up at 0615), along with Jireh, Joshua, Chris, Shaun, Qiuyi and Angela. It was pretty amazing. I've never been part of any worship team (save the youth choir back in Lighthouse), and it was very... satisfying to know that you're actually reaching out to them. Bible study today was about temptation. Rather interesting, I must say.
Anyhow, after all that, we had jamming at the Wong's. Fione came along too. She was still being as crazy as ever. *sighs* Honestly, sometimes I wonder what she sees in my brother. We managed to accomplish quite a bit. Pretty packed schedule too.
01st Apr : Full Dress Rehearsal
07th Apr : Select day to play for sch
08th Apr : Screening
13th Apr : Screening
Ack ack ack. Deadline so close.
Getting scared.
By the way, drummer Chris has new movie.
(Right click save as)
His stick twirling thing kinda shocked us.
. // prawninator | 22:55 + ~ Yeah, yesterday was my last paper, Social Behavioural Studies. Yay, it's finally over! *jumps and dances* My examinations are over! So in order to celebrate, I had asked Ash out to watch a movie yesterday. Decided to get Sam to come along too, so we watched The Haunted Mansion.
It wasn't bad, though a tad too short. That show kept on reminding me of my NwN character though. *laughs* The way Eddie Murphy tried to punch Ramsley and all. It was funny, but quite nice in a whole. I wouldn't call it a must-see, but you can consider it to be a movie you'd want to watch if... you had nothing else to watch. The four singing busts are the funniest, believe me. And their harmony, oh my GOODNESS you should hear! *jaw drops*
Went walking around Carrefour after the movie for a while, and bumped (literally) into Nick. Sam was quite upset, so we left quickly, and then Sam decided to go home, while I decided to hang out with Ash for a while more. So we were talking all the way from Plaza Singapura to Cuppage, where we sat and ate for quite a while, talking still. He said he was whining about life in Menzo, but I didn't mind, it was rather interesting, really. At 9:30pm we were "chased out" politely.
Continued to walk from Cuppage to Heeren, then from Heeren to Lido where we sat and talked and talked... and talked... until about 2am. From everything about NwN to his brother and my family, we just talked it all! Then went crazy and suggested to walk back to Dover... and we did. Made a few stops along the way because of the humidity and spiderwebs, but otherwise it was fun and such. Made another stop at Holland Village where we each bought a drink and a lollipop. Sat there talking till it was almost 5am before continuing the half-hour journey to Dover, -STILL- talking. Sat in my void deck until about 6:30am STILL talking (and also because he didn't want to pay the bloody midnight surcharge, which is dayli... uh.. moonlight robbery in my opinion) until he had to go, and me too.
Came home and waited for my parents to leave the house for work. Stayed on MSN talking to Jon for a while before I really couldn't take it anymore and took a nap until about 1pm, and then realised that I had missed so many messages from Joonas on MSN. Gah, I felt so bad in the afternoon, when I left for my dental appointment. I SMS'ed him, but well... He's saving money, so I didn't receive a reply. Had my retainers fitted and gawd are they uncomfortable. Pink plastic and wire on the roof and base of my mouth. My tongue's got nowhere to rest.
So now I talk with a lisp.
Don't call me for the next few months while I hang my head in shame. I never really had an articulation problem until today. *mumbles*
. // prawninator | 23:42 + ~ Went out for a short while with Shannen and Samantha to Suntec yesterday. They had gone to see the education fair while I didn't, as I know that I wouldn't be able to afford it. Anyhow, they had gotten me PURPLE TULIPS!!! I was soooo surprised when Shannen told me. And they were lovely too! I took a picture with them :D
Aren't they pretty? Can you see the tulips? They're somewhere there there and there. Three! The rest is the usual fill-ins in bouquets. Oh, this also happens to be the FIRST bouquet of flowers I've EVER received in my entire life. And if you noticed anything different about me, I HAD MY BRACES REMOVED!!
YES! On Wednesday, I had them taken off!
Whoo hoo!
Anyhow, Jireh, Joshua, Alwyn, Chris, Issac and I were in the upper prayer room, and we found two toms, a bass and a guitar. We had only intended to bring down the bass amp (which unfortunately, wasn't working) but when we found the guitar in a hardcase and the bass in yet another hardcase, we decided to hang around for a while.
But when I opened the guitar hard case, a B.C. Rich gold top stared out at me, nestled comfortably in red velvet and boy, it was B-E-A-YOOTIFUL! We spent quite some time back at the Wong's later on, dusting it off and replacing the strings, polishing the guitar and giving it a good cleaning up and rubbing down. I took a picture of Jireh's dad while he was playing the guitar. Mosaic-ed his face just in case hehehe.
Isn't it a beaut?!
Anyhow while we were still in church, we had brought down the extra toms... and they sounded quite cute, like Latino drums or something like that. I'm not much of a drum person. But anyhow, I've got a video of Chris with some of his moves. You can download it here (right-click save as). You'll need a Quicktime Player to watch it though. Hehehe. If you see the camera shaking, that's because I'm laughing. =x
Spent the entire evening cleaning up the guitar, stringing it, hand-hammering our cymbals and just basically giving the equipment a good cleanup. It was fun though!
But now I gotta study.
Human and Mass Comm exam in just over 12 hours away...
Wish me luck! (preferably good)
. // prawninator | 22:52 + ~ I received a few gifts today. And I'm really quite happy.
Right.
First of all, I spent the entire fucking day alone at home doing nothing but playing in a boring server in NwN. Didn't think anyone would call me either so it doesn't matter. As I said, I don't expect much. I don't really like going around screaming and blatantly announcing, "hey it's my birthday, go out with me!" I'm not that sort. But I don't care. Do I? *shrugs*
Yesterday I received a card from Pat's mom, sister and buddy. It came as a pleasant surprise, because I didn't think they'd even know my address.. But it was sweet. The problem is, it came in a bright red envelope and my mother was eyeing me the whole time until I opened it, and when I exclaimed that it was from Pat's mom, she looked shocked and at a loss for words. *laughs*
For the first time in years, I celebrated my birthday with my family, even though it was only 10 minutes of singing the birthday song and eating cake. Even when I woke up this morning with a sore throat and in high spirits. The mood died down eventually through the day while I was alone. And here's a picture of my cake.
Anyhow, I received a recorded Dutch birthday song from a friend in Belgium. I have to hold his name because he asked me not to tell anyone it was him. Heh. You can listen to it here (right-click save as). It's funny because he had a cold when he recorded it.
Lang zal ze leven
Lang zal ze leven
Lang zal ze leven in de gloria
In de gloria
In de gloria
Translation:
Long will she live
Long will she live
Long will she live in glory
In glory
In glory
But one of the best presents I've ever received is this:
It made up for everything. When my mom got home the first thing I did was to grab her key, run downstairs and open the letterbox. I found a long white envelope inside, and when I opened the envelope I laughed because of the facial expressions of the shoulder angel and devil. So cute.
I'm moody now.
Seems like so many people forgot.
Ah well, perhaps I should get used to it.
*sigh* Purple tulips...
. // prawninator | 21:31 + ~
It's my 20th birthday, the mighty 3:16.
I just have a few people to thank.
Mom and Dad
Though you both drive me nuts and whack me every now and then with bamboo poles and chairs and metal wire hangers, I still love you. Can't blame me, you made me didn't you? So I literally owe my life to you. Anyone who saves my life thereafter is secondary. You've given me a home, warmth, comfort etc. And I really have to thank you for that.
Kai
The only reason why I can't call you a sonuvabytch is because we have the same mother. I hate you for that. *sticks her tongue out at you* But still, you'll always be my baby brother, whether you're 16 or you're 61. I'll always be 4 years older than you. *points at you and laughs* But hey, you never fail to cheer me up sometimes and though we have our differences and wrestling matches (in which I always win, HAH!) you're a cute little boy to me. Thanks for being there, bro. *hugs and NOOGIEEEEES!!*
Shannen and Samantha
I'm not going to do individual testimonials for either one of you because it makes no difference, what I would say. Both of you have been incredible, like really close sisters and I really have to thank you for that. I could turn to you when I was down and when I'm up I can just have fun. Our suaning sessions and little outings really make an impact on me. Thank you. *hugs*
J + P
The beacons in the dark, the only ones I can turn to and find arms to bury myself in. Thank you, with all my heart, thank you. Even though we see less and less of each other with each passing day, it doesn't mean that I don't love you anymore.... but then again, I don't really have to say what I feel about you here, because deep in my heart I know that you already know. And since one doesn't read this thing anyhow and the other doesn't even have a computer at the moment, it kinda makes no difference eh? I'll just SMS the both of you. *hugs!* I love you!
Joonas
A steadfast friend, one that has listened to my crap over and over every day, you bring light into my world. I feel like I can tell you anything and everything, just talking to you makes me happy. Even though I've only known you for such a short period of time, the time spent talking with you seems like forever. I'm sorry about that day my SMS nearly killed you and don't say anything, but I really am sorry. *winces* I'll make it up to you somehow. *hugs!*
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Ash
I doubt you read this thing anymore, but if you do, I'd like to say thank you for being there for me, for being a listening ear when I needed someone. For being so accomodating and understanding... For being you. I remember the first day I really met you face-to-face and then we spent four or five hours just sitting in Starbucks talking away. And then passing my mobile phone around to the guys when we were having supper and you couldn't come. Here's to you, bro. Vayne, Ashton, Whateverwemightcallyou. *winks and hugs*
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The IS/NL/FI/etc.-ers Whom I Know
Thankyouthankyouthankyou! I guess you were the only ones who knew about my problems and helped me... and I really appreciate your effort, thanks!
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The Colony
You had better not forget it this year! I let you off for almost four years already... Bwahahaha. Honorable mentions: Hannah, X, Chun Fong, Jeremy etc. You know who you guys are.
Red Horizon
Jireh - Naggy fella you. Thanks for listening.
Josh - *fwaps* You can never stop teasing me can you?
Peter - Tall guy with softy heart. Cheer up dude and thanks for listening too
Chris - Don't be so nervous, I won't bite. Thanks for your jokes and all.
Kai - See above.
*gives each of you a HUG!!*
IDM
Dan - Thanks for listening, dude. I don't really need to say more.
Hanz - You're the craziest one yet, and I gotta thank you for that.
Rav - NS has driven you faaar away and I haven't really spoken to you much. Miss ya bro.
SZ - Your wisdom has touched me, and I hope to catch up with you soon.
Hau - Are you ignoring/avoiding me...?
D3N - MIA again? Hope you're doing okay in whatever you're doing bro. Miss ya.
Mike - Thanks for everything. Catch up with you soon.
GH - Ditto!!
Sern - You nerdy ahbeng you! Miss ya loads!
*HUGS TO YOU GUYS!*
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FSV/Gamer dudes
Most of you wouldn't even remember my birthday but hey. Thanks for the times in the dusty Mechmaster, dinners together at Ameen/Market/Wherever and the various topics of conversations dished out. Unfinished food, horrible Hokkien Mee and everything, thank you.
Dan - See above.
Bran - Bloody bytch you. Thanks for the sharing and beer and yeah.
Man - My dearest maaan!! Thanks for being such a good-sport/joker!
Sean - Skinny wolf you. Stop fragging me! :P
Sheng - Eh neighbour, why don't I ever see you around?
Dy - I simply love your spectacles and your sense of humor. 3:16 man!!
Rong - Don't quiet quiet... Thanks for the cigarette talks :)
Roman - Only saw you just those few times, but I like talking to you. Thanks.
Jason - Thanks for listening big guy, really appreciate it. :)
Chua - Run, Chua, RUNNNN!
And to all of you, one *hug* each too!
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FMSS | NYP | MDIS classmates
I'm thankful to have met all of you in my lifetime. Honestly, thank you...
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Others that have made impact
One word:
THANKS!!
*gives everyone she knows a biiiiiiiiiiig hug*
If not for you, I wouldn't be here right now.
. // prawninator | 00:29 + ~
. // prawninator | 03:27 + ~ I was bored the other day. On the last day of school I went around snapping pictures of my classmate. And then I used one of my friend Fangming to do this...
Mwahahaha.
I feel evil. I didn't wanna put a reward there. Some of the things I do and say -can- offend people, you know. ;) It just depends on whether I realise it, or whether or not that person wants to tell me. *laughs*
Ah well. I have jamming at 1pm. I'm so late.
. // prawninator | 12:39 + ~ *cough* new painting *cough*
Done by request, my NwN character's elf lover Elwyn Anirion.
First time drawing full armor. Hehe.
Took me the better part of two days, but it's done.
My wrist is aching...
. // prawninator | 15:06 + ~ I had wanted to make this the main page for my website, but I gave up. I'm not sure how the ftp thing works, and I sure as hell ain't gonna start tearing down my blog (AND my site) so soon yet. Maybe next time, when I get a really nice domain name and stuff. Right now it's just evilprawn.hhxnet.net, and I want one simple, like evilprawn.com or something. Hahaha. Or prawninator.net. I know both aren't taken yet, so I still have my chances.
Besides, my birthday is coming... (hinthintnudgenudge) someone could buy a domain name for me and give it to me for the first year! I could always pay the rest myself in the coming years. Oh, redirections don't count. I could always get one for free anyhow. I want a true domain name. Maybe I'll call up Henry Fallon and ask him. If I pay, I'm sure he can help me. Heehee.
And awwww, I'm awesome!
*rolls eyes*
Yeah right.
I'm still quite freaked out over last night though.
Pat invited me into the MSN conversation he was having with HIS MOM while I was on the phone with him. She's really sweet, actually, that I wonder why Pat still lives with his dad. But anyhow. She couldn't type English very well, with Dutch being her first language, but we could communicate.
It didn't last very long though, she had to go for a party and I needed somewhat of a interpreter but then Pat's dad entered the room so he wasn't really... allowed to talk to her. She actually got Pat a mobile, not just for her to contact him, but for me too as well! *giggles*
But still...
I'm freaked out.
(And haven't I done that "what attracts people to you" test before? I don't know, I've kinda lost track. I just found this picture strikingly familiar...)
. // prawninator | 14:33 + ~ Hahahaha.. the photos of my band are up.
Click here to view!
Cute right? Ahahaha. Want to get to know them, drop me a line. Mwahaha.
. // prawninator | 11:19 + ~ How do you like the new look?
. // prawninator | 22:49 + ~ I was bored in class and I drew the base drawing for this, a painting of Chrystal J'ayde, new character I play on a new server... which I spent like... 3 days to color because Myth Drannor is down for the 3rd or more consecutive day.
*sighs*
Auditions went pretty well, I guess. We played three songs... Stand By Me and Don't Look Back In Anger, both by Oasis and Crimson Tide by Nightwish. Liked the last song the best, but performed Don't Look Back in Anger best. Heh. Hope Mathew Lim actually lets us play in Orchard. Wouldn't want to be caught dead performing in IMM for crying out loud. Sheesh. Doubt anyone would though.
Ah well.
Let's hope it pulls through.
Changing blog color scheme soon.
. // prawninator | 21:26 + ~ One word:
Whatever.
. // prawninator | 13:28 + ~
You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.
Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.
It's just a matter of time.
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