And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
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And shadows still remain,
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain"
November has come. It was Samantha's birthday Sunday, and tonight was Halloween, which despite all the hype and preparations, I never really participated in, due to the lack of peer participation. Even though I was "dressed to kill" like the cab driver said. Oh well. No biggie. There's always next year. And the year after next and so on and so forth.
Honestly, I can't really be bothered.
I just like dressing up in black every once in a while; I know it's not really my color as I'm a pretty cheerful person in general, but I like black. On me, anyway. It makes me feel morose, tones me down a little despite how much candy I could have had earlier.
Speaking of candy, my brother discovered the Candy Empire in Millenia. Whoopie, he bought us enough chocolate to drown us both. Hehe. I still owe him $20 for dinner last night. He went crazy and bought us a seafood feast; it was AWESOME. Barbecued stingray, chilli la-la, and compared to what we had been surviving on previous nights (basic sandwiches and some homemade shepherd's pie) it was just too good.
My funds are dipping. Sure I'll get another bit of cash with October's pay.. but I don't think I'll be getting as much this time as I did, considering the number of sick leaves I took (hey, I work in retail and if my leg acts up, what can I really do about it?!). Due to my injury years ago, I still can't walk properly nor straighten it all the way. Does anyone even notice that?
Well, it acted up again recently, and it hurts like the fucking dickens. But the doctors cannot issue me an MC because technically, they cannot find anything wrong with my leg. They just prescribe me painkillers and let me go. And with that, I not only spend my money on seeing the doctor, I DON'T GET SICK PAY.
Mister Manager thinks I'm skiving. Well, Mr. Manager, why don't YOU go fucking tear your ligaments and dislocate your fucking knee, then put on 50kg worth of fucking weight on your fucking shoulders?! It's not as though I don't want to work. I love my job. I absolutely love my job and there's almost nothing else I'd like to do.
I love games. I love being around people.
I love my job.
BUT I hate the management. And it takes a LOT for me to hate something/someone. I may get complaints about me from customers, and whatever. I can't make every fucking person happy. What about those people that actually LIKE me for fuck's sake?! It means I'm doing something good SOMEWHERE right?! So fine, judge me by my wrongs and negatives, and turn a blind eye on what I actually succeed in doing.
Whatever. Want to fire me? Sure. Bring it.
I don't need managers or people or customers to trample all over my "pretty little head" because I'm a fucking woman. Yes, Mister Customer, I know you think that women know LESS about games than guys. Let me tell you something. WE KNOW JUST ABOUT THE SAME, IF NOT MORE. You think only men know about chipsets and graphics cards? You think men only know which mousefeet is best for your mouse? You think only men know which game would better suit your tastes?
Well fuck you.
You're no better than the Male Chauvanistic Pig Next Door. Wait, I'm sorry. You ARE the MCP-next-door. Maybe not next door, but you get my drift, don't you, Mister Customer? Keep your fucking mind open will you? I'm sick and tired of people thinking that women can't play games. Even the WOMEN themselves go, "I'm a girl, I don't play games!"
The world is going to end.
. // prawninator | 03:17 + ~ |
You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.
Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.
It's just a matter of time.
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