And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
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I just suddenly wondered if he saw his young life flash before his eyes while he was falling. What did he see? How did he feel? I never get to know, because they fade away before they can say anything. Before darkness consumes them.
What do I feel now?
My parents came back from Beijing early this morning, at about six. I was woken up before then by Eldritch and Ahri who were screaming "LYTH! LYYYYYTH!!" at the top of their lungs on Vent, in a dud attempt to wake me up. Which unfortunately, succeeded.
And I had an exam, my FINAL exam at 2pm the same day.
Needless to say I was quite moody. Mom called and woke me up to tell me to wake Kai up. So I did, but he didn't, as we were both still fast asleep, and we kinda slept through it, to our mother's ire. Oh well, sucks to be her at that point of time, I was way too tired.
Exam time came and went.
It was alright, I don't think I'll be guaranteed a pass though, so here's my fingers crossed and I hope I get at least a passing grade, otherwise I'd have to work on it AGAIN and I'm sure I don't want to see KL's face again in a long, LONG time. I mean, who would even want to for that matter?
Dad came home later that evening, and he told me that he had lost his job. I didn't know what to think. For one thing, my dad is 57 years old. It doesn't matter if he has a phd or not, he is FIFTY-SEVEN years old. He's not gonna be able to get another job, I don't think. And with my qualifications, I'm not able to get a better job than what I have right now.
Two thirds of my family income has gone. Two thirds. And we weren't living very comfortably in the first place. I tried to help out. I became self-sufficient, only asking for help when I needed it. I can't support my family like this. I still haven't completed my studies. My brother is halfway through polytechnic. I'm afraid.
I don't know a day where my dad wasn't working, where my mom wasn't working for the family. I was always sent to my grandmother's for caretaking until they came home from work. Even when my dad was in Austria. I missed him terribly that time I remember.
I'm at my wits end. I've been crying with my mother.
But I have to be strong.
As much as I want to say that money is the root of all evil, people need it too. I'm broke. I have no money. In fact, I might lose my job soon too. I don't know what's going to happen and how, or when. But I would appreciate any help if possible.
Right now, I see my life flash before my eyes.
. // prawninator | 00:36 + ~ |
You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.
Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.
It's just a matter of time.
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