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When I was a child I spoke like a child Thought like a child Felt like a child Now that I have grown up I have put away childish things But I unpacked most of them When I got there. . // prawninator | 23:52 + ~ Someone please tell me who he is... I still get goosebumps whenever I watch this. Extremely powerful chorus if you ask me... Quite literally. . // prawninator | 23:39 + ~ YOU fill in the blanks about ME and send it back to ME. My email is right there. But first post a blank one out to all your friends so they can return the favor to you. Be honest. this should be good. my name: Who is the love of my life: Where did we meet: Take a stab at my middle name: How long have you known me: When is the last time that we saw each other: Do I smoke: Do I drink: Do I curse: Do I believe in God: When is my birthday: What was your first impression of upon meeting me: Color of my eyes: Do I have any siblings: What's one of my favorite things to do: Am I funny: Do you remember one of the first things I said to you: What's my favorite type of music: What is the best feature about me: Am I shy or outgoing: Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules: Do I have any special talents: Would you consider me a friend/good friend: Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what): Have you ever seen me cry: Are my parents still together: If I had broccoli stuck in my teeth would you tell me: Have you ever hugged me: Do you miss me...do you think i miss you: What is my favorite food: Have you ever had a crush on me: If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be: What's your favorite memory of me: Who do I like right now: What is my worst habit: If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring? if you had the chance would you go out with me? If you had the chance would you have sex with me? (honestly) . // prawninator | 00:31 + ~ I will not allow petty, trivial things to get to me. Or petty, trivial people for that matter. What am I ranting about you wonder? Just the fact that I was not informed of a certain situation made me slightly confused. Quite an important event, too. But what can I say? It honestly has nothing to do with me. If the person chooses not to tell me, it's fine. I'm just a little disappointed, considering how I was there for her when she needed me so many times. So I may have been harsh, but seeing what she was like in person, it changed my perception a little. She. Is. A. Bitch. It may have been the hormones coursing through her body, but I sure as hell do NOT want to be like her when something like that inevitably happens. Oh please, don't try to redeem yourself. YOU WERE A BITCH And I'm not the only person who thinks that way. Me. My buddy. Your own self-proclaimed ex-fiancé. You don't listen to yourself sometimes. You demand attention. You may THINK you're not, but oh ho ho ho. I'm sitting miiiiiles away from you and yet I can feel your desperate need for attention to be showered upon you. It was honestly getting on my nerves. I'll bet your ex-fiancé couldn't tolerate your bullshit either. He's trying all he can but all you seem to be doing is breathing down his neck, and bossing him around. How would a man feel about that? Being henpecked to that degree? You belittle him in that sense and what good will that do for either of you? He'll feel less of a man and in turn will feel reluctant to contribute to your relationship. He loved you, you know. I could see it in his eyes. He tried to do everything to make you happy. Everything in his power. You made him feel like he didn't do enough. He could NEVER do enough. Even the little things never counted in your good books did it? You may be smart, yes. But you definitely aren't smart enough. I suggest you stop trying to be portrayed as the victim here, and open your god damned eyes. I don't CARE if you're weak. I don't CARE if you're vulnerable. The only person you can blame for your miserable state is none other than yourself. Stop whining and listen to others for a change. Oh yeah, remove me if you wish. I don't give a flying fuck. For all it's worth, I'm probably better off without a friend like you. You were a friend once, but now, I don't know, nor do I care. Looks like you don't need me as a babysitter anymore, so I'm removing myself from your social circle. Not that I was even considered in it anyway. . // prawninator | 23:11 + ~ Fuck you, bitch. . // prawninator | 01:05 + ~ So the end of the fiscal (financial?) year is drawing to a close. Really, reeeeeally quick. By November 22nd, all new entries should be in, checked, signed and accounted for, and I should be swimming in legal, financial, American International Assurance Hell. Either way, I'm taking a break between the 22nd and 24th of November to prepare for my Baptism that Sunday. I haven't had a good night's sleep since I started this job, to tell you the truth. I'm almost tempted to have a big meal right before I go to bed each night so I can sleep better, but that would make my Life Meter drop a couple notches, and that's not a good thing. Not at all. But what can you do? Some people are stuck in a rut, what I heard my dad call the poverty cycle. It's when you study just as much as your finances allow. I studied for my Advanced Diploma, but cannot continue because I cannot afford it. And I cannot afford it because I do not earn enough on my current qualifications. And I cannot earn better qualifications because I cannot afford the school fees. And I cannot afford the school fees because I don't have a job that can support my studies. Different way of putting words, but do you sense the pattern here? That, and I still want my brother to go to university because I never got the chance to, and probably never will. So where's my salary going? Food. Transport. Savings fund for my marriage. Brother's education fund. House upkeep. Bills, bills, bills. House is already fully paid for, after 20 years. The decor sucks, but hey. It's home. Getting married to a foreigner isn't all fun and games, or a bed of roses if you will. We're still clueless to what we have to do. I've spoken to his mother, who's spoken to a lawyer, and she mentioned that I should be able to just get up there, marry him and be done with it, but from what we've been researching, it's not going to be that easy. At least I know of many people who would be envious of the kind of relationship I have with my boyfriend's parents. But the whole poverty cycle situation reminds me of this article my mother brought to my attention this evening. Anyone heard of Wee Shu Min? No? Neither have I, at least until tonight. I managed to track down the article that people have reproduced over and over again on their own journals. For my own record, here it is. Thursday, October 19, 2006 No doubt, I was a little upset about her attitude towards the middle-class. I will admit, I'm not starving, or denied an education. I just cannot afford better, for the reasons I mentioned above. I am not going to slam her, but neither am I going to support her. Being from the middle class who know they will at least have plain, white porridge to eat the next day, I do feel a little angered at her rant. Sadly, I'm not inclined to be nice about this either. I don't honestly care if she's the daughter of an MP. Does Ms. Wee know what it's like to not know where her next meal is coming from? C'mon... Being forced into child prostitution? Government massacre? Isn't that a little extreme? Chances are, how often does that happen anymore, in comparison to the rest of the world? The winners are not marginalised and oppressed. People have reasons to oppress, but there's no reason at all for belittling. I mean, she criticized Mr. Wee about his spelling. Maybe I should do the same about her punctuation, or lack thereof? What angered me more was her "apology". shu-min says She's still keeping the high-and-mighty attitude, and I'm not surprised how people are not impressed with her "apology". Not surprised at all. If I were in the shoes of Mr. Wee, I would be furious too. And to have such an "apology" written, I'd be even more worked up. Maybe she should be sent for a Singaporean version of The Simple Life. And all of us "arm-twisting commie" bullies and "whiny middle-class undereducated" people could sit in front of our second-hand non-plasma TV's and watch her shatter into pieces. But that will probably never happen, and all we can really hope for is that people like that would be better educated and fresh (not spoiled, harhar.) about life in the real world, and that it's not all just books, lectures and good grades. Then again, whatever I've said here has probably been said over and over again on the Blogosphere. Oh well. Disclaimer: This post is not meant to flame Ms. Wee any more than she already has been. I'm just stating what I feel, but if you wish to give me constructive comments, be my guest. Remember, the key word here is constructive. I do not condone baseless flames or degrading comments in regards to Ms. Wee Shu Min, her father Mr. Siew Kim, Mr. Derek Wee, or myself. Thank you. . // prawninator | 22:26 + ~ |
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