Zhou Pei Lin

And I find it kinda funny

I find it kinda sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had

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Tuesday, September 28, 2004


We JUST received stock for arguably this year's BEST strategy game of the year. I mean, it actually received a 9.1 over 10 in Gamespot, and its users rated it 9.4! That's pretty good, considering how Sims 2 was only 8.9.

What game am I talking about?

I'm talking about ROME: TOTAL WAR of course! We honestly thought it'd be here later than Warhammer 40,000: Dawn of War. But we're glad it's in stock, people have been asking about R:TW as much as people have been asking for WH40k:DoW. So that's a good thing for us, since Sim Lim already has stock for WH40k:DoW, taking away several of our customers. The fact that we don't have a credit card machine doesn't help matters.

Anyway, it's system requirements are:
Windows 98SE/ME/2000/XP (English)
Pentium III 1.0GHz processor or higher
8x Speed CD-ROM drive (1200kb sustained transfer rate) & latest drivers
2.9GB of uncompressed free hard disk space (plus 500MB for Windows swap file)
100% DirectX 9.0b-compatible 16-bit sound card & latest drivers
100% Windows 98SE/ME/2000/XP-compatible mouse, keyboard & latest drivers
DirectX 9.0b (included)
1024x768 Monitor Resolution
3D hardware Accelerator Card Required - 100% DirectX 9.0b compatible 64MB Hardware Accelerated video card and the latest drivers
Seems pretty demanding, but DAMN it's worth it!

Managed to catch Ryan on YIM late last night. Things aren't going too well for him, and I feel for him. I just wish I could be there to hug him and tell him that everything's all right. But well, some might know things aren't really going all that right with me as well.

That's life I guess.

. // prawninator | 17:19 + ~

My copy of Sims 2 is NOT FOR LOAN...

*narrows her eyes and hugs the box*

. // prawninator | 13:33 + ~

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Everyone's been coming in to ask when Rome: Total War and when Warhammer 40k: Dawn of War is being released here. Daniel, Hanz and Raven have all been asking me and pestering me to keep three copies for them too. One of the reasons is because Hanz has to fly back to the US.

Sad to say, Dawn of War will only be out next week, and I dare not tell them. I mean, they'd flare up and shit. Or maybe not. Anyway, Fatz (who is no longer fat, by the way) will be playing in the Youth Park tonight, so Dan, GH and some others will be heading down there. I might go if I'm allowed a dinner break.

Argh dammit, gonna be late.

Ryan if you're reading this, I'll email you when I get home alright? *hugs* Take care of yourself out there, I'll try to talk to my parents about letting you stay with us, instead of spending your money on a hotel.

"I push my finger into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache"

. // prawninator | 10:36 + ~

Friday, September 24, 2004

I swear, Sims 2 is the spawn of the DEVIL. I've been home all day playing it too. And my computer nearly crashed due to the lack of virtual memory. Looks like I need a faster processor. 1Ghz is never enough.

Gods, my head is reeling.

I got to work tomorrow.

Seems like Richard Burn's Rally and some other game will be out tomorrow.

We'll get Dawn of War and Full Spectrum Warrior on Wednesday.

I hate delays.


. // prawninator | 22:06 + ~

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Call of Duty: United Offensive is out tomorrow...
So is Warhammer 40k: Dawn of War.

. // prawninator | 21:15 + ~

Friday, September 17, 2004

First day of work...

One word: WOW.

And Jayce didn't expect that kinda reaction much from me. I wouldn't know, I don't know what he was expecting. I just hope I did well today. The hours are long and my feet hurt, but who cares? I'm surrounded the whole day by GAMES!! *drools* I get to find out what kinda people play the same games I do as well!

Anyway, while on my shift, I met Tanvir, a guy I met about two years ago in NetGames. We had played alot then, that's where I met RedSteel (otherwise known as Keith) who's this South-African dude who's seventeen and his voice not broken, and some others. He applied for the sales job, but I got it... he got the technical position instead. Which is all right, really.

It's cool, seeing another familiar face.

I'm working tomorrow again. Which is cool, I don't mind. And it's Saturday so I'll have more to do instead of just moping around doing nothing and checking to see if drink cans are lying about, or the displays are out of place and such.

I love my job so far.

This is gonna be good.

. // prawninator | 23:27 + ~

Thursday, September 16, 2004

64.28571428571429% of me is a huge nerd! How about YOU?

... oh my god.

. // prawninator | 23:51 + ~

This is amazing.

It has been an amazingly LONG day, that's for sure.

I found a job as a salesperson in e-games Interactive, at Orchard Cineleisure. To tell you the truth, I didn't really find the job per se, Garreth SMS'ed me while I was on the way to school yesterday and asked if I was interested in a job at a games shop. Naturally, I jumped at the opportunity. When I asked him why he SMS'ed me about it, he just said that for some reason, my name popped into his head when his friend asked him for recommendations.

So after lunch with Jeremiah, Siew Ling, Irene and Meiling, Garry and I headed down to Somerset where I had to fill up a form and be interviewed. It wasn't really that bad. I mean, I have been there before, but only as a customer, and I was lamenting about the fact that they don't stock AVP2 anymore. Looks like I don't have to get it now, considering my schedule. I will hardly have time to play NwN now, let alone AVP2.

After the interview, I went home to change my bag and shoes, then met the AMCD2 0411A guys at Newton for dinner, after which we went down to Zouk. They wouldn't let Jessie in though, because she didn't have her passport with her. Velvet didn't even let James, Nader or Elice through either. So we went to the Newsroom Bar instead. It wasn't that bad. I got a little more than buzzed and did quite a bit of dancing (note: I can't dance), so by 2am when everyone else had gone back, only Jaymee, Garry, Gene and his friend Damien were left. Took a lift from Gene, and went to Al-Ameen for supper.

Contradicted Garry about almost every little thing. Fun. Hahaha.

Gene then sent me home, and I stayed home since, as I had terrible leg cramps when I woke up. And a fever too. I'm better now, though. Much better. I still have sore legs and arms, but I'll be fine sooner or later.

The guy from e-games (Jason, I think) called me up earlier to tell me I have been hired, and that I start work tomorrow. My first reaction was, "TOMORROW?! But Garry told me MONDAY!" but I agreed to be there at 12pm. So, yeah. I start work tomorrow.

When I told some of the MD'ers and my close friends about the job, they kept on saying that there wasn't a better job out there for me, that it's my kinda thing. For now, I can't agree more, but I'll have to see how things go before making any sort of conclusion. Promised to treat Garry to lunch on my first paycheck, as he was the one who roped me in.

Now, I'm nervous as hell.

Wish me luck! :)

. // prawninator | 19:09 + ~

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

I'm pissed.

If it's one thing I hate, it's being taken advantage of, or for granted.
And being ignored, or neglected.

I'm so fucking pissed.

. // prawninator | 23:45 + ~

Monday, September 13, 2004

She put him out
like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart,
he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night.

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her 'til I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby.

La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.

La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.

The rumors flew
but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years
she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind,
Until the night.

She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby.
This has got to be the saddest song and video I've ever come across as yet. Every time I watch it, I just feel like crying... The other night, I set it to loop and cried myself to sleep. Sleep was restless though, just about an hour or so. *sigh*

It's... just so sad.

. // prawninator | 23:46 + ~

I haven't been getting much sleep over the weekend. Just over eight hours since Friday until now. I know it's not a lot, but still... Can't possibly turn back the clock now can I? The main reason I was awake was Myth Drannor. Damned-to-hell addictive if you like that kinda thing.

And Nick just hung my MSN, that fucker.

I'm still receiving music from Boland, so I think that's a good thing.

No, it's not.

ARGH now I'm pissed off.

. // prawninator | 22:34 + ~

Friday, September 10, 2004

i feel lonely.

cold, empty, lonely.

i reach out for you..

but you're not there..

i miss you..

. // prawninator | 21:09 + ~

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Watching The Trocks got me wondering something utterly random.

"What if I were lesbian?"

My first reaction was, "I don't know." and I left it at that.


I don't know what to write.

I get mental blocks sometimes.

Too many times.


. // prawninator | 22:50 + ~

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Went to see Les Ballets Trockadero de Monte Carlo (click, but homophobes beware) tonight with my brother. It was amazing. Amazingly funny! Too bad they're only here until the 11th. I would love to watch it again, but the tickets cost a bomb. The tickets I got for my brother and I were $77 each. And we were sitting hiiiigh up in Circle 2.

The view was not too bad from where we were sitting too, really. You get to see the entire stage as compared to those along the sides. Some people thought, "Oh, I'm sitting AT the side, I should be able to see everything! And it costs $15 too!" Too bad they can't see half the stage.

They made parodies of Le Lac Des Cygnes (otherwise known as Swan Lake, by Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky), and there was this cuuuute guy that kept on making himself so obviously noticed. There was also this little solo performance called "The Dying Swan", choreographed to the music "Le Cygne" written by Camille Saint-Saens. That was the most hilarious part of the show. Fokine had little notion when he created this solo for Anna Pavlova in 1905 that it would become, in later years, her signature dance, and perhaps the most famous solo in ballet. But the Trocks' version was sooo different.

It starts off with the spot light focusing on one point on an empty stage. It moves from point to point, trying to determine where the soloist would enter. Turned out (s)he enters from where the spotlight was initially. That cracked some up. But the funniest part was that as (s)he was dancing, feathers started fluttering out from h(er)is tu-tu. Throughout the dance, feathers flew, even as (s)he did, legs shivering, head-pecking.. hehe.. (S)He tries desperately to stuff some feathers back, but eventually dies. And the curtain calls were funny too. Ah man, just thinking about it makes me want to laugh as hard as I did in the theater along with the few hundred other people.

Some people say that anyone who knows ballet can poke fun at it, the way The Trocks do. I digress. I admit they are not as synchronised or as neat as the real thing, but they -are- the real thing, just packaged differently. They know their stuff, that's for sure. You think someone who barely knows... let's say.. the guitar, can come up with tunes that contradict and play around with the actual tune? No way!

You just have to know your stuff.

I don't know my stuff.


What stuff...? Hm..

I gotta watch more performances like these. I had wanted to catch "The Merry Widow", but I'm broke, as I wanted to watch "The Trocks" more. If Oliver! ever returns, I'm catching it. Again. Cats can screw it. Joseph and The Technicolor Dreamcoat, I'll consider. Oh gods, if Die Fledermaus comes... I'm so going to watch that.

Looks like I need an "Opera kaki".
Hard to find, lah.

. // prawninator | 23:40 + ~

Thursday, September 02, 2004

It's been a while since I last blogged here.

I mean, it's September the second and I haven't even changed my blog layout. Will do so later... I'm not so satisfied with the September Theme I have to upload. I'll work on that later. Heh.

Saturday was interesting for me. Mom and Dad decided to take my brother and I to have some chocolate fondue. Where? Of all places. The Gallery Hotel. Once I stepped into the place all I could think of was Ryan's smile. Why? When he was in Singapore, he stayed in that particular hotel.

Memories aside, the fondue wasn't all that great.

The white chocolate sauce didn't melt properly, and the semi-sweet one wasn't all that nice either. They said they had sponge cakes for dipping. Suuuuuure. Stale, hardened cakes maybe. Not sponge. Fruits and marshmallows were given too, as well as walnuts. But for that price, I'd rather go to Häagen-Dazs for the chocolate fondue. At least they have ice-cream.

After that, went shopping with my mom. She bought me this black dress, for concerts, dinners and the like. It's pretty. Well... pretty in the dark and brooding sense. For crying out loud, it's BLACK! Anyway. I just realise how mundane my life really is. I mean, seriously. I have a boring life.

My life is spent alone in front of the computer playing Neverwinter Nights. As if that's not enough, I don't really have people to go out with anymore. It doesn't really matter to me, I guess. After all, I managed to survive secondary school without any true friends. Only person I have left is Ryan. And he's not even here.

Ah well, it's time to hit the movies alone again.

. // prawninator | 09:10 + ~

To whoever you are, wherever you are, I love you. I probably don't know you yet, but when I do, I'll know, and so will you. And you'll love me for who I am, as will I.

You might be living in my neighbourhood, or some other town or country far away. I don't know. And neither do you, at this point.

Wherever you are, I know I'll find you... if you don't find me first.

It's just a matter of time.

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